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So Far… Well, I could start off with a lot. A lot has since last April.. including my relationship status. February 1st will mark our 7 month anniversary. That seems like such a long time. I can hardly believe it sometimes.. and even with my screwed up self, he still sticks around. He is so very sweet. He doesn’t know about my blog. I just realized this and laughed. Frankly, I forgot I had a blog.
As for the too many changes part of my title, life has drastically changed. I’m on my second semester of college. Last semester was pretty easy considering I took an introductory psychology class. It was actually quite fun. This second semester is a bit harder but not too bad. Lots of studying and staying on time for my papers will keep me in the safe zone. Hopefully I can bring up my GPA. I’m currently typing on my new laptop. That’s another change.
Usually I cryptically talk about staying strong because living with my parents isn’t always the easiest. Normal for a teen, right? It gets rather annoying having a parent staring over your shoulder or breathing down your neck over the least little thing you do or don’t do. Like currently… Especially with my 20th birthday coming up soon and I am still stuck at home because of no way to live on my own yet, it’s hard.
I started this blog back in 2014. In October, if I looked at the post correctly. I have changed drastically since then. It will be 3 years in October and wow.. Life is so different. I go to college, my boyfriend, and basically.. I have grown up a lot. I still play violin though I’m nowhere near as good as I could be if I actually would make time to practice. I need to make time for a lot of things but I’m always so busy. Yet, I sit here typing this when I should be writing my paper that is due tomorrow and finish up the homework that is due today.
So there is my busy life. I actually don’t even care if people read this anymore. (I actually probably never cared seeing as how slow of an updater I am.) I just need a place to type out my thoughts, to organize, and collect them together before I go crazy from needing my brain defragged. Once again, I forgot my earbuds so I’m stuck typing without music. Yuck. That’s annoying. Now, to go write my paper and do all the adulting that I would rather go hide from while I try not to fall asleep. I should drink my coffee. I would say goodnight but it’s like 9 am. Lol so.. Goodbye till next time. 🙂
Only 3 months… not too bad. Lol in the 3 months, I have completed community service at a vet office and laugh in the face of Swallowtail Jig. I really need to practice more. Mmm… I need motivation. Mostly because I’m tired all the time. XD life of a teen. Yes, of course I stay up late. #nojudging Remind me again why I’m writing this at 2 am? XD
Life has been pretty… not ok for me lately but I’m working on it. Hopefully things get better soon. (Lol I’m so tired and can’t think about what to write.) Ohhh… I have an idea!
People I dislike. The ones that judge. The ones that try to control you. People that won’t let you take a moment to breathe and relax again. People who say you aren’t beautiful. People like this are… I don’t even have the words. I dislike them that bad. (Not gonna curse) I’m gonna go on a mini rant here.
When people do this to you… stand up to them. You are you! You are amazingly awesome!
If they are going to judge you then really… they are actually judging something in their life but they won’t face it and so they take it out on you. When they try to control you, it’s because their own life is out of control and they need to feel like they have some grasp on reality. It’s wrong of them to do though. Tell those people who won’t let you breathe and relax to just back off! Tell them to stay in their own tater patch. (Basically, mind their own business.) I know this is hard with parents. They are hard to deal with. I’ll have to write a section about parents later when I’m clear minded and can think on the subject. People who say you are beautiful have a complex somewhere/somehow about themselves. You are beautiful. We are all beautiful. All in our own ways. I’ve had many people tell me… oh I’m not pretty and on and on. I don’t believe you. Even if I’ve never even met you. I don’t believe that not for a second. Everyone is their own kind of beautiful. Everyone is loved by someone. Trust me (the late annoying blog writer that no one even reads) because I really do know what I’m talking about. Even if no else loves you, cares about you, thinks you’re amazing, and beautiful… I do. (In a non creepy way, I swear. *way to go make this situation more awkward*)
I have to go now. I’m falling asleep while typing. So goodnight you awesome people. Read this junk. Blah blah blah. The end.
So Far… I’m late-ish. Lol Nearly two months since my last post but who cares. As the title of this post says… Busy, Busy, Busy! Also getting sick for three weeks. I am healthy as a horse the whole year till one month during winter and I get wiped out. Yuck. I’m trying to prepare for college coming in the summer/fall. The summer part is because I may go early. I’m really glad I’ve taken this gap year.
Anywho… I’m going on a scholarship. I have to complete community service to stay eligible. I decided to go and ask the local vet offices if I could complete my community service at their facility. A few things about that… I am horrible at talking to strangers, make a mess of my words, have massive problems with acting normal when I’m nervous, and I have no patience with waiting for them to call me back.
Being an introverted extrovert is hard work and I need to work on my patience. Patience is a virtue and whatnot is a plague on me sometimes. Ok… enough about that. On to Wattpad. I am trying really hard not to give up on my story Chasing Chances but I literally have no motivation and I’m just stuck. I left it in December of 2014 and haven’t gone back to it yet. I may continue writing it some day. I’ve started other stories though… they haven’t been posted and I’m not sure if I will post them yet or not. I have a poem book called Life or Death that I’m pretty proud of. 🙂 It is posted.
Continuing on to violin!!! Gosh, I am so in love with playing! It is so much fun! I’ve learned tons in the however long that I’ve played… I really need to calculate how long that is exactly. Right now I’m learning Swallowtail Jig which is pretty hard. I keep messing up this one part and it makes me wanna scream. Thank goodness I’m stubborn and won’t quit till it’s right. I’ve learned to play Old Joe Clark (regular and shuffle bow versions), Shebeg Shemore (I hope I spelled that right… it’s five am and I can’t find my sheet music… it’s an orchestra piece by the way), several hymns, religious type songs that I sing with my sisters, Locked Away by R. City ft. Adam Levine, Half A Heart by One Direction. I can’t think of anymore at the moment… All my sheet music is put away. Lol I want to learn how to play Love Me Like You Do by Ellie Goulding. That song makes me cry and it’s just so beautiful.
Once again, I go to close a post… I think this is my longest post yet!!! Let’s see how long it takes me to post again. Whoever guesses right gets a million dollars. Yeah, just kidding… I’ll never have that much in my life and if I do then I might make a small donation to you… but I have too many dreams to fulfill. Lol 😉 well… anywho.
Goodnight! 🙂
So Far… HOLY BANANAS! It’s been a year plus one day! *laughs nervously* Ummm… yeah. I told you I was bad at this stuff. Well, on the the good stuff. I finally started playing my violin! I’ve been playing for seven weeks but I’ve only had lessons for five of those weeks. My teacher says that I’m doing great so I’m like WHEW! I would like to go to college for my A.A. and my A.S. (of course I’ll further those… this is a start)… I would like to go on to become a Vet Tech with a degree of some sort in music.
I’ve taken a gap year from school so I can start college with my sister next fall. We are both going to go to our community college for our Associate’s degree before we split up and go to separate colleges. She is gonna go on to become a pediatric nurse or doctor. I’m pretty sure nurse but I haven’t talked to her about it in awhile. I’m about worried about humans in general though. I’ve been homeschooled basically my whole life. I grew up with a few church friends. I am shy and antisocial. So… I am pretty wary of strangers. However, I don’t mind talking to strangers via the internet. Must be the typical teen part of me.
Now that I have bothered all you nice people with my random update… I’ll go now. I still have cookies. These might be stale though. HOLD ON! *makes fresh batch of deliciousness* Here you go! *throws cookies everywhere randomly* Welp… yeah… I’m gonna go now. OH! My phone broke. The horrid thing. It has been broke for three weeks. So my addiction to Wattpad has been seriously deprived. So has my addiction to my music. The internet at our house is broke too so I can’t use the laptop. We are also renovating. It is a crazy mess. Ok Ok! I’m going for real now. Goodbye all you people! Hopefully I don’t wait another year to post. Lol
Goodnight! 😀
So Far… This update is probably going to be very random but like I always say… If you don’t like it then congrats to you but do not blast my page with ugly irritating comments that I will delete. But… If you do like it then thank you so much, you awesome person!!!! 😀 Free cookies! So anywho… I have no clue what to post but I’m a day late so music it is… Like usual. 😉
I’m currently listening to Rocks At My Window by Bridgit Mendler. I have a wide variety of what I listen too… Panic! At The Disco, Bridgit Mendler, One Direction (sort of), Britt Nicole (Love her!), Lots of different EDM, Hunter Hayes (sort of), The Ready Set, Taylor Swift (sort of), Owl City (LOVE!), Hawk Nelson (Sort of), classic instrumentals (seriously… like Mozart. lol)… I’m sure that there is more but I can’t remember right now. lol
If anyone can tell me what my music type is I will give you blue cake. 🙂 cause I listen to so many different types that I have no clue what it is all called when they are all put together in one group. I’m weird. lol I have to get up like really early tomorrow/today. 
It’s already almost 2 am! Blah. Who cares? No me! 😉 I’ll regret it tomorrow in algebra. lol
Books! XD Wattpad is so awesome. XD I just updated my story on there… and on time too… 😀 Are you shocked? lol I am. I’d rather read than write any day. Ok… I’m done bothering you guys… That is… If you got this far. lol So…
Goodnight! Read my boring stuff! Cookies, Cookies, and more Cookies!!! 😀
So far… I am like 2 weeks late. No internet, getting sick, then Thanksgiving… Also I have so much school and I’m slightly stressed out. Lol Oh well. I’ll live. Lol
I have like 3 Thanksgivings. I have to make five pies tonight! Am I crazy?! Ummm… that’s a high possibility. 😉 lol so many desserts… a yummy ham… green beans!!! Do you guys/girls like ham or turkey better? 🙂 If turkey, white or dark meat? For me it’s ham and if turkey… then dark meat. 🙂 All you vegetarians… I respect your stand and thanks… because that means more for me! 🙂
I love baking pies. 🙂 I can’t cook very well but I can make a pie. Lol my dad was teasing me one day and told me that I couldn’t get married because then my husband would steal all my dad’s apple pie. Lol I was like… Thanks, dad, love you too. Lol 🙂
So… enough about food that I am sure to kill myself on tomorrow by overeating and becoming as fat as that girl off of “Charlie and the Chocolate Factory”… Wasn’t her name Violet? Anywho… on to Green and Yellow!
Green and Yellow are two of my kittens. My little brother renamed them this because of their color. Lol Green is a tortoiseshell and Yellow is an orange tabby. Lol The first time I heard him call them that I seriously ROFLed. Lol They have real names but the names, Green and Yellow, will probably stick. Lol
Well, I have to go slave away now so goodbye until I am unbusy enough to post. Lol
Goodnight 😀
So Far… I got a violin for my birthday this year. After three years or more of waiting and wanting, I finally got one. After wanting one for so long… guess what. I don’t even play it. 😦 Shame on me. I’m afraid of people saying that I sound bad. I know I sound bad… It takes at least a year before you are barely good at it.
I hate caring what about what people think or say about me. I guess I have a soft heart… That’s not what I’m told. Lol Sometimes I want to say What the hay… Who cares about their opinion anyways! Hopefully someday soon I’ll get the courage to grip Life by the horns and shake it for all I’m worth. I want to make a difference.
I see awesome violin artists like Lindsey Stirling and wish so hard to be like them but how can I if I never try? I just don’t have the courage to do it. Being a coward makes me mad. I’m gonna have to “suck it up, buttercup” and just do it… but easier said than done, am I right? I’ve got a lot to work on.
I love music in general. I love instrumentals, especially violin and piano. I love Christian music. I can’t stand Rock, Jazz, Rap, or Pop… I’m sure I could add to that list of “Eww. No thanks.” quite easily. I could go on forever on this subject but it’s late and I’m not in the mood. Lol I’m going to listen to some music and sleep! I love sleep… ;D
So Far… my third entry. I hope people actually read my ramblings. Until next time… Goodnight.
So Far… On Grammar Nazis…
Picture this… Someone is reading out loud in a group reading and the person beside you is correcting, under their breath, the reader’s every other word.
It is the most annoying thing ever! I can not stand it when someone does that! Ok… so every now and then if they did it… that wouldn’t bother me. Casual help on some words that you don’t know is fine… but seriously. Every other word is not very pleasant. Think about how the reader would feel if they heard you! Think of the person beside you who has to listen to you! I don’t know many people who would want to hear you.
I’m off my soap-box now… lol Sorry if I scared anyone. So I was planning on posting every week but life is hectic for me… I never know when I’m going to be able to post. I’ll try to post a least within 2 weeks… but who knows. lol
This post is quite a bit shorter than my other one… I warned you that I’m not the greatest writer in the world. 🙂 At least I try. To all you “Trying” writers out there… 🙂 Good Luck.
So Far… my second entry. I hope people actually read my ramblings. Until next time… Goodnight.
So Far, My friend has a blog and she can write (tell) a story like nobody’s business. She is why I got a blog. I have another friend who gets inspiration to write quotes and tell stories just by glancing at something. They are my inspiration.
I’m the maybe sorta ok writer in the bunch. If they heard me saying this about myself they would tell me that you have to believe in yourself to be able to write anything. You have to believe that you ARE a writer… but so far I’m not totally convinced.
I prefer writing songs, inspirational/emotional longish sayings… whatever those are called, and short stories. Usually I bottle emotions inside me and then explode but my best friend (friend #2 mentioned above), the one who if we lived closer… we would be inseparable, who does the same thing… she suggested that I write out my emotions and that’s how I started out on the journey of my writing life.
My most recent story is a backwards Cinderella story and a mix of other fairy tales… Only this isn’t no ordinary “Cinda-rel-ly!”… It’s a girl and her brother. He was taken away when she was young and her parents are dead. She’s lonely and her brother was her only companion… or that’s what she thought… Between traveling through dangerous places and dealing with talking spiders and the such… well… it gets strange…
I’m gonna post it on my Wattpad when I write enough of it. My Wattpad profile is at this link if you feel so kind as to go check it out. http://www.wattpad.com/user/IAMUnchained
So Far… my first entry. I hope people actually read my ramblings. Until next time… Goodnight.
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